The Cost of Forgiveness

I’ve been reading a lot of Tim Keller lately. So, admittedly, most of these thoughts are his, not mine. He made some amazing observations about the story of Namaan (2 Kings 5:1-14).

Namaan is a commander of the army of Syria (an enemy of Israel). He is portrayed as a man of honor and power, but he also had leprosy. He hears of a great prophet in Samaria (Elisha). So he goes to this other country (Israel) and brings a great treasure to offer in exchange for his healing.

When Elisha tells Namaan to go wash in the Jordan river, he is enraged. He brought a small fortune and came prepared to do “some great thing” in order to purchase the healing of his leprosy, but was told to “just wash” and it was too simple. He walked away from Elisha with bitterness and anger.

Like Naaman, we understand that there is usually some cost associated with healing. And the greater the disease (typically) the greater the cost of healing. Now think about that in terms of our sin. We profess to believe in justification by faith alone. We all know that we cannot buy our healing and forgiveness from God. We know that our only hope is that God has “caused us to be born again” (1 Pet. 1:3).

But I think deep down, like Namaan, we have a hard time really embracing this. The command he received, “just wash”, seemed to be too simple. Our command to “just believe” seems too easy as well. We hesitate to approach God in prayer after we have fallen into sin. Rather than embracing, enjoying, and loving God for His forgiveness, we often spend our time making resolution to do things “For Christ” in hopes to make it up to Him or pay Him back.

Naaman’s healing was free. It cost him nothing. However, it did cost somebody something. We learn in the beginning of chapter 5 that Namaan and his army raided a city in Israel, and that he carried off a “little girl” as a slave. It is likely that this raid resulted in the death of the little girl’s parents.

We would expect this servant girl to harbor hatred and bitterness toward Namaan. We would expect her to react to his leprosy by saying in her heart: “You’re dang right you have leprosy. You deserve nothing less for warring against God’s chosen people and dragging me off as your slave.” But she doesn’t. In fact, she is the reason he makes the trip to Israel and finds Elisha. We see her in verse 3 wishing and hoping that he will be healed. She longs for healing for the one who plundered her hometown and drug her away as a slave. That’s crazy!

Namaan’s healing didn’t cost him everything. But it costs this servant everything. Her suffering and willingness to forgive him led to his healing. Sound familiar? The innocent one suffers, and the guilty party is healed and forgiven. The innocent absorbs a high cost and the guilty one is cleansed (at no cost to himself).

It’s easy to read that story and overlook the servant girl’s suffering. Naaman DID NOT have to do “some great thing” in order to be healed. But the servant girl DID have to do “some great thing” and suffered some great costs in order for Namaan to be saved from his decaying flesh.

Likewise, the reason we often find it difficult to accept forgiveness that is made available to us, is that we forget that it was not completely free. We can truly embrace and accept forgiveness that costs us nothing only when we gaze upon the suffering servant of Isaiah 53 who paid the full ransom price for our sins.

We have to remind ourselves and preach to ourselves that “when Christ offered for all time a single sacrifice for sins, he sat down at the right hand of God.” Keeping this truth in front of our eyes will keep us from falling into what John Piper calls the “debtors ethic” where we try to “make up” for our sins by working for Christ, as if the cross were insufficient.

Missional??

What does it mean to be missional? Is there a difference between mission-minded, missional, and missiological. I’ve heard varied definitions of all three, but have no more clarity on what it means to be on mission. When we talk to iGosians about being on mission at home, how does that relate to doing missions overseas? Is one greater or more necessary than the other? These are all questions people are asking, and unfortunately as the word “missional” has become a buzz word, it has been attached to things that are actually not missional or missions.

Ed Stetzer has some good insight into this issue of what it means to really live on mission and do missions. Check out his blog by clicking the link below and comment here with your thoughts about being missional and doing missions.

Click here to read Ed Stetzer’s Blog

Leslie’s Story

n1440990408_30408993_7165Leslie is an iGo Alum who has led teams for us and volunteered at Base Camp. She is currently attending Oklahoma State University in Stillwater, OK. Through her interaction with international students there, she befriended Ami, an exchange student from Japan. Through conversation and friendship, Leslie got the chance to share the Gospel with Ami, give her an English and Japanese Bible, and start a weekly Bible study with her. Below is an email Leslie sent about her Bible Study with Ami:

Thursday Ami and I had coffee-mochas, but we didn’t drink them until we left the coffee shop because we were drinking in the living water - and that water was so refreshing, satisfying, quenching, delicious, and life-giving. The first question Ami asked me was the difference between the Father and the Son. After answering her question we started reading in John. Before we could do that though, she needed to know who John was. Then, as we started reading she needed to know that the John we were reading about in the first chapter was not the same John writing. We went verse by verse from the first chapter through the middle of chapter 3. Sometimes there were questions of English, other times questions of the Book, and many times both. It was one of the best hours of my life. You should’ve seen the look on her face when we read that Jesus turned the water to wine! I thought to myself, “WE’RE ONLY ON CHAPTER 2! WAIT’LL SHE READS THE REST!!!” Oh and when we read how much He loves us in 3:16, I wish you could’ve seen the tears fill her eyes! When we read it she pointed to the word, “whoever.” She didn’t know what it meant. She knows now. Anyone. Any person. Everyone. Every person who believes…

Only the Father knows the condition of her heart and He is the only one causing the seed in her heart to grow. Whether or not she believes yet, I do not know…but I do know it won’t be long! Pray for Ami, we will read again this next week. Pray that He would draw her to His Book before then, that waiting until the start of the semester would be too long - that she would be thirsty now. Pray against the lies the enemy will try to throw her way to choke that seed. And pray for her to know Him. And thank Him for His deep love for us - that He will bring a girl all the way from Japan to podunk Stillwater, OK for this purpose!!! Oh He Is So MIGHTY To Save!

I can’t wait to read with Ami again. It is all so new to her and it is all miraculous and awesome and exciting and wonderful and mind-blowing and earth-shattering! Reading with her convicts me as I see the excitement in her eyes! How often I just read over those miracles without thinking about them! Father, forgive me! I am so thrilled to read with her again because I see it coming alive for her, which causes it to come alive for me once again as well. I will say that it is exhausting reading with Ami, but it is joyful exhaustion. It’s like football, (I’ve never really played football but I imagine it’s like football, haha.) During the game the players are having a blast pouring out all of their energy to win. But afterwards those boys need a shower, nap, and carbs. Reading with her propelled me into the Book myself. I had to be filled again. Are you allowing Him to fill you? If not I challenge you to let Him fill you. And if you are, are you turning that cup upside down, pouring yourself out? If so, I challenge you also to let Him fill you more, that your life may be a constant overflow - that as quickly as He is filling your cup it is overflowing into those around you.

And pray for all the Amis living in Japan. There are millions. Just as Ami had no knowledge before we met, they too have NO KNOWLEDGE! There are millions of people dying daily around this world - not people that rejected this hope, but people that never knew that this hope exists!

Isaiah 44:19 “No one recalls, nor is there knowledge or understanding to say, ‘I have burned half of it in the fire and also have baked bread over its coals. I roast meat and eat it. Then I make the rest of it into an abomination, I fall down before a block of wood!’”

I pray that just as Isaiah had a revelation of God (ch.6), and his natural response to the Father’s love was to say, “Send Me!” that this would be our response as well. Ask Him what this means for you and your family and your life. John tells us to “Go and make disciples of all nations…” Maybe giving towards those that are going and lifting up those who are going is what He has for you (I believe He has this for all of us). Maybe He wants you to GO. Ask the Lord of the Harvest to raise up many workers for His field. For the fields are ripe for harvest, it is the workers that are few.

Chassidy Smith (soon to be Rogers)

Chassidy Smith, who many of you know, joined our staff May 13, 2009 and is coordinating the TX Super Summer Global Xtreme trip. This Saturday she will become Mrs. John Rogers! (Check back for highlights from the wedding.) Below is an article she has written on engagement:

chassidy-john1I have always tried to imagine what being engaged would feel like: the ring, the butterflies, the expectation, the excitement of it all. Since August 1, 2009, I have not been disappointed. Engagement has been all of those things. Sometimes it all feels so surreal I have to sit down, look at my left hand, and think “Wow. This is actually happening.” It is beautiful. It is everything that I hoped and prayed for as a young girl. And it is more, much, much more. I see traces of Ephesians 4:20-21 when I think about the beauty of engagement and marriage; God is “able to do far more abundantly than we can imagine, according to his power at work within us.” It has been far more than I could ever imagine or pray for. I am constantly grateful at the provision of Father.

Throughout the last five months, however, there has consistently been something that I have not expected. The more I prepare for marriage individually, the more John and I prepare together, and the more God gives me his eyes for the purpose of marriage, the less and less I can run away from this thing. It’s not excitement, or anxiety, or stress. It’s refining. The closer I get to January 9, the hotter the heat gets, “for he is like a refiner’s fire and like fuller’s soap.” (Mal 3:3).

In his newest book, This Momentary Marriage, John Piper says “the highest meaning and the most ultimate purpose of marriage is to put the covenant relationship of Christ and his church on display….it is about showing in real life the glory of the Gospel.” Through scripture, Father is revealing to me the gravity and weight of marriage….and it is huge. In a short time when John and I come together in the covenant of marriage, we are given the incredible responsibility and blessing of showing the world a tangible picture of the Gospel. We are to show to one another, and those around us, grace, mercy, love, sacrifice, selflessness….we are to portray Jesus and his bride, the church.

Needless to say, the last 5 months of preparation, and the rest of my life, have been and will be a deep time of refining. God is bringing to light things about myself that don’t bring glory to Him (and probably make me really hard to be joined together with J). The word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword (Heb 4:12), and God is using His word to challenge, convict, refine, and restore me. I continue to learn Bottom Line as I realize how much marriage is not about myself, or John, or our family. Marriage is solely about the glory of God. It is to glorify him by being an accurate depiction of the Gospel. “This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church.” (Eph 5:32)

Though I will continue to learn and be challenged and floored by this truth for the rest of my life, it has already greatly impacted me. Thinking of engagement in Bottom Line terms means I’m not so controlling or nit-picky, it means I don’t hold something over my future spouse’s head, it means that we actively seek the guidance and will of the Father, because He is what it is about. Bottom Line, His glory and the truth and freedom of the Gospel. It is not about my comfort, preference, or feelings; it is about something and someone much greater than myself. Something much greater than us. Though engagement and marriage is beautiful and wonderful, I am learning the depth of its beauty. Not because of a ring, or a ceremony, or even getting to spend the rest of your life with your best friend.

“Marriage is a magnificent thing because it is modeled on something magnificent and points to something magnificent. And the love that binds this man and woman in marriage is a magnificent love because it portrays something magnificent- “as Christ loved the church” and “as the church submits to Christ.” The greatness of marriage is not in itself. The greatness of marriage is that it displays something unspeakably great, namely, Christ and the church.” John Piper, This Momentary Marriage.

Happy iGosian New Year!

As you enter into Twenty Ten, let me give you a quick and simple challenge as you continue on your journey to missional living.

Reflect. Find a quiet place today and remember what He has done in your life in 2009. Get out your journal and allow His faithfulness and His work to encourage you.

Get a plan. Call them resolutions, goals, or commitments. I think it was John Maxwell who said if you fail to plan then you can plan to fail. As you enter the new year, what are your goals? What do you want your life to look like a year from now? How will you get there? Here are some essential elements for your plan:

Read the Word. Do you have a plan for reading the Bible this year? There are all kinds of resources readily available to us. Do some research and pick a plan that works for you. Here are some sites and posts related to planning your devotional life this year:

*The plan Pastor John Piper recommends - http://ow.ly/RbAk
*A post from iGo co-founder JR Vassar (now leading a church in NYC) - http://post.ly/GS3u
*LifeChurch.tv has some great resources - http://youversion.com
*The Life Journal is another good plan - http://lifejournal.cc

Pray, Give, or Go. You need a plan to do your part this year in God’s Global Mission. Some of you are going this year. Some of you have gone in the past. Not everyone can go every year, unless of course you are Rachel B, Allen D, or Leslie C. For the rest of us, we need to plan to stay engaged. Here are two links to help you stay engaged and do your part:

The Joshua Project - The Joshua Project will help you pray for unreached peoples every day. You can even follow them on Twitter.
iSend Project – Maybe you haven’t heard of the iSend Project. What a great way for an iGosian alum to join us in 2010. Join this month and receive a free book.

Eat lots of Cucumbers and Tomatoes (especially for breakfast). Not only is this healthier than your pop tarts, it will remind you of the teaching and training and just plain fun times you had at Base Camp. Seriously, consider this. Eat some cucumbers and tomatoes for breakfast one day a week. Yes, you can have something else with them. On that day, set aside some time to pray for the nations. Pray for the people you met overseas. Pray for the M’s that live and serve there. Pray for the teams going out this summer. Pray for us at iGo Global. And let us know how we can pray for you. Happy New Year!

–The Republic of iGosia

What are you reading?

“You will be the same person next year except for the books you read and the people you meet.” I’m not sure who said that, and I’m not sure I completely agree with the statement, but I have to admit the quote does have some truth to it. I like what Shu has said, “Readers are leaders and leaders are readers.” It’s hard to argue with the truth of that statement.

I’m not a guy who really loves reading. For the most part, I have to intentionally make myself read. Over the last several years, the practice and discipline of reading has become much easier and something I enjoy more and more. I want to be a guy who is constantly learning, and one great way to learn is to read. So, I do my best to read at least one book a month.

front-coverI recently read “Wild Goose Chase,” by Mark Batterson, and it has made a big impact on my life. In fact, it was one of several books God used as my wife and I prayed about and ultimately made the decision that God was leading us to adopt a little girl from Ethiopia. Many things stuck out to me as I read the book, but one specific thing continued to come to mind as I read: “What do you feel God calling you to do now that if you don’t do, you will regret later in life?”

When I look back at my life thus far, I have had my fair share of regrets, especially regarding risks I didn’t take, times when I played it too safe. Yet, I was challenged as I read this book, that as a believer, God hasn’t called me to live a safe, comfortable, risk-free life. His desire is that I be a risk taker for Him, to not always look for the comfortable and easy way, but to trust Him and step out in faith and obedience when He calls.

The decision for us to adopt was one I wrestled with for a long time. But as I continued to go to the Word, realizing that it is God’s primary way of speaking to us, I asked for wisdom. As I prayed and sought what God desired for us, I could not get away from the prompting and voice of the Spirit nudging us to step out in faith, to trust Him. So, although we are uncertain of what God has in store for our family, we move forward with confidence and assurance that He has called us to adopt, specifically from an “unreached” people. No matter what may come our way, whether it be joy, pain, or some combination of the two, we are excited about what God has in store. We are determined as a family to walk in obedience to Father, living our lives with no regrets.

As I mentioned, God’s primary way of speaking to us is His word, and that should always be the first and last place we go when we need wisdom. But, I’m so thankful for authors and books God also uses to challenge, stir, and inspire me. He used “Wild Goose Chase” in my life, and I expect He will use others as I take the time to read and learn from other authors. So….what are you currently reading? How has God used what you have read to impact your life?

Kent’s currently reading: “Killing Cockroaches: And Other Scattered Musings on Leadership” by Tony Morgan

Next on Kent’s reading list: “Counterfeit Gods: The Empty Promises of Money, Sex, and Power, and the Only Hope that Matters” by Tim Keller

Journey to Sam

I love to struggle. I love difficulty. I love to suffer. I am happier when things are hard. I wish God would teach me some things the hard way. I like pain.

No sane person says things like this. No one without complicated issues asks for suffering or seeks out struggle. By nature we want things to be simple, easy, pleasant. We just don’t like pain. Does that make us weak or worldly? No. It makes us humans. It makes us like 6 billion other people. But as we experience life most of us can say that struggle comes, whether we invite it or not. Pain itself does not define us or make us into anything. It is what we do with it. It’s how we respond in those seasons that determines who will come out on the other side.

Most of you who were around iGo this summer know that Charity and I traveled to Kazakhstan to adopt our son, Sam, this spring. We left in early March and returned on May 31st after three months out of the country. It was not at all what we expected it to be, and we missed a lot of things here in the process. We missed the team leader/JSI retreat and College Base Camp along with lots of other things in other areas of life.

We arrived in the middle of a pitch black Kazakh night to a little man, O, who greeted us at the airport in Russian. He spoke Russian and Kazakh, but very little English. He took care of us for those first few days in country. He got us settled in our little hotel room 30 minutes outside of town, got us to the baby house to meet a bunch of little people, and helped us get moving in our process.

Meeting Sam was an overwhelming experience as we were introduced to eight children in one day and asked to choose our child by the next day. We saw so many things in the children that we were not ready for, and the whole situation was more than we were prepared to handle. Walking through this emotional process also brought so many things to the surface in our own lives: thoughts and attitudes that were ugly, petty, and so selfish. Not only were we scrambling through the “child matching” process, we were being confronted with some very deep-seated issues of our own that had to be dealt with.

charity-samWe were eventually matched with Sam, though, and began the next couple months of waiting, paperwork, interviews, court dates, more waiting, travel documents, and more waiting. We basically visited Sam at the baby house twice a day and waited for other people who we did not know or understand to do things that we did not know or understand. We just went where they said to go, did what they said to do, and went back and forth from blank stares to confused grimaces.

April 29th was Sam’s “gotcha” day, which means the day we took him home from the baby house. We still lived in Kazakhstan for another month, but Sam lived that month with us, eating shashlik, hanging out around the Linen statue, and going grocery shopping every other day.

Looking back on it all, the best way to sum up our experience and our lives as a result of it comes from Proverbs 20:21: “An inheritance quickly gained at the beginning will not be blessed in the end.”

What we see spelled out in scripture and have learned from experience is that when you labor and wait and struggle for things, they are so incredibly valuable. Our journey to Sam and with him since is something we will never forget, and the images and smells and people still seem so vivid, but we have learned so much more about faith and about the author of faith through this than we could ever have read or heard.

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Prayer

By Jami Lee Gainey

Romans 12:12 reads, “Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”

Many of you have heard Kent teach from Psalm 139 concerning God’s sovereignty. I agree with Kent that even though I don’t fully understand the sovereignty of God, He works when people are faithful in calling out to him – he works on those prayers, and they are powerful.

You iGosians know how we stress during training time that prayer is not “just something we do when there’s nothing else to do”; it’s what we should be doing first and foremost. It’s the groundbreaking work to any type of ministry we do. Before seeds can be sown, the ground needs to be plowed and broken up with prayer.

I saw this truth come to fruit in my life in a new, joyous way this past summer. This past June, my father was diagnosed with cancer and told he had less than six months to live.

Soon after learning of Daddy’s diagnosis, my husband, Nick, and I went to Silver Cliff with our youth group, where we prayed together each morning concerning Daddy. We prayed, as Jeremiah 31:12 says, that others would see us as “radiant over the goodness of the Lord” – and be drawn to God because of that. We prayed specifically for my aunt and uncle. I learned a week later that this was a prayer that Daddy and Momma were also praying.

Approximately two weeks after his diagnosis, my father spoke at his home church on a Wednesday night. Instead of talking about himself and his present suffering, Daddy challenged his church family to be intentional about praying for and witnessing to friends and family members who were not living as Christ would have them live (obviously my aunt and uncle were on our minds). He told them – “Don’t wait until you have six months left before you feel the urgency…start now. Persevere, and don’t ever give up praying.”

On the morning of August 10, 2009, Daddy went to heaven. As they carried his body out of the house, my Aunt stepped outside with my grandmother, and told her these words: “I’ve found Jesus.” Two weeks later, my Aunt and Uncle came in front of my parents’ church – my uncle to declare a new commitment he was making to Christ, and my aunt to share her new decision as Christ being the Lord of her life. God answered a prayer that some had been praying for over 35 years.

As Beth Moore taught in her last simulcast, beneath the desires of our heart, is the heart of our desires; and, only when destiny or God’s glory is at stake, will God make us patiently wait instead of answering our prayers concerning the desires of our heart. The desire of my heart was that God would heal my father, and allow him to live for much longer than he did. However, God knew that His Glory was at stake – and that His Glory was truly the heart of my desires. So he answered according to that, and now I know I will not only see my Daddy in heaven, but also my aunt and uncle, and who knows how many others because of testimonies of the Hope that God provides for us.

So as Romans 12:12 says, Rejoice in the hope we have, be patient during tribulation – when you are waiting for God to answer the desires of your heart – and be constant in prayer, knowing that God will answer understanding the heart of our desires, and in accordance with what brings Him the most glory.

Thoughts from Sally Waller

Sally served as a Jimmy (office intern) with us this past summer and below is a story about iGo she wrote for one of her classes this semester.

There is exactly one Sonic, one Subway, and one little hole-in-the-wall Mexican food restaurant (named La Flor) in Lavon, Texas- a town that serves more as a spillway for Rockwall residents than anything else. There is also exactly one shopping center in Lavon, Texas, where the Dollar General is the premiere fixture. Behind this Dollar General and next to a smelly patch of land that connects to the local Post Office, there is a small and rather inconsequential office building. 695 Main Street Suite 400: iGo Global headquarters.

It is not the land of Harry Potter where everyday objects lend themselves to strange, magical transfigurations. The inside of the building is exactly like the outside: normal. The office space contains the same desks and computers found in any office across America. The copier and printer perform the same tasks any copier and printer would perform. Business transactions are the same: money comes in and out; and the post arrives everyday at 4 o’clock.

Upon closer examination, however, there are little oddities that make this office space unique. Who would have guessed, for example, that the control for the air conditioner seems unable to attach itself to the wall because of a football that very often goes haywire through the halls when the stress of the job becomes too much? Or that the six inches of Scotch tape covering the light switch in Kent Jones’s office is there because he works better under lamp light? (Naturally). There are these little things that make this little office its own.

Physicality aside, the office is also distinctively marked by its people- even though, at first glance, they are in uniform with their building. The people that inhabit the building on a daily basis are normal. They are not powerful businessmen in expensive suits that drive powerful sports cars. They are normal dads and wives and friends in all respect but one: they are dreamers who believe in a faith that is radically encompassing.

iGo Global is an organization that was founded nine years ago on the dream of two men, who had a vision to engage high school students in the ancient and ongoing work of God across the world. Driven by the dream to “Make Him Famous,” the organization exists to provide a vehicle for students to learn to live a missional lifestyle that first and foremost brings glory to God. And that is the difference, which is what makes this ordinary building with ordinary walls and floors and ceilings the container of something extraordinary. This little building has had its identity altered. It has been changed because its ears have heard prayers of pleading for a generation to take their place in advancing the Kingdom, prayers of tried hope when finances are uncertain, and prayers of thanksgiving when Jehovah Jireh proves (as He always does in some form).

To date, over 2,000 students have been mobilized, and all of the planning and the organizing and the business transactions have happened out of the tiny office in Lavon. While in so many ways the typical white, sheet-rocked walls and generic brown carpet of this office are exactly that- typical- they have seen things that are in direct contrast to the morals and standards of our culture. The office has seen men and women and high school students who are driven by a bottom line. But not a monetary bottom line that asks, “How much profit can I make from this?” Rather, a bottom line that states: we are created for His glory alone.

The truth is that out of this inconsequential office space, in a simple shopping center, in an unknown town, lives are being changed and the face of the world is being altered. Out of 695 Main Street Suite 400 there is a collective voice rising and saying, “Yes, Lord, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you; your name and renown are the desire of our hearts” (Isaiah 26:8).

Banquet Story

n34416386_34893891_44929071Jordan E served in the middle east for six months this year. She shared the following story at the banquet this past Saturday:

I remember the day we met. Suhair came to our house to teach Renae and me our first language lesson. She was very shy and had very limited English, but I knew from that first day that we would grow to become close friends. With each lesson, she began to open up more and more. We began spending Saturdays together, sometimes cooking at the house, sometimes going out to eat, or going to the mall. The more time we spent together, the closer we became and the more her English improved, which obviously made communication easier.

One day during lessons we were going along like normal and talking about our names. When I told her that my middle name was Elizabeth, she immediately said, “Oh, I read this somewhere.” After asking her where she read it, she responded by saying the Arabic word for the Bible – the “Injeel.”

That was the first day we found out that she had been in the word. Apparently, she had been reading it at her uncle’s house. She would say things like “I love the stories of Isa” (the Arabic name for Jesus). This was obviously encouraging, so we began asking her often if she was reading the Injeel and what her favorite stories were. We had no idea how much time she was spending in the word, when one day she informed us that normally she would read the Injeel for three hours at a time. It was obvious Father had been at work in her.

Suhair has an illness considered very “shameful” in her culture, which usually results in her being very stressed out, worried, and depressed. Suhair informed us one day that it was through reading the Word, and listening to Christian music on an iPod I gave her, that she had peace. By this point, we had become very close and Suhair was sharing everything with us about her sickness…things that she wouldn’t tell anyone else. She would repeatedly tell us how we were her closest friends and how much she loved us. There was no doubt in our minds that Father had placed us three together, even if all we did was encourage her and provide a shoulder for her to cry on.

Renae and I explained to Suhair multiple times about who Isa was and why He came to earth; but, she never seemed able to bring herself to believe it. In her mind, she was Muslim…and that could never change. We shared with Suhair how she could be a Muslim and follow the teachings of Isa, how it’s a matter of heart rather than label. She was always open to talking about it, but was hesitant to surrender to it.
On April 30 she came over to our house to do our language instead of going to the office. We all seemed a little unfocused that day, and kept going off on random topics. Suhair picked up my book “Crazy Love” and started reading from a random page.

She opened her mouth and read the first sentence that her eyes landed on: “And this is how we know true love, that Jesus Christ died for us.” To hear those words come out of her mouth - even if she didn’t know exactly what it meant - was amazing. We read a little more out of the book and then asked her what her favorite story was from the Injeel. She told us it was the story where Isa healed the women who touched his cloak. After asking her if she thought Isa could heal her today, she responded “Yes, but I don’t know how.” After encouraging her to ask him through prayer, she said she didn’t know how to pray. Rene explained to her some of things she says when she is praying for Suhair…things like peace, rest, understanding, and (of course) health. Suhair’s face lit up. It was as if she realized that those were the same exact things she had been experiencing in her life.

We asked her if she believed everything in the Injeel and she replied, “Yes I believe – no, I know, that everything in the Injeel is true.” Although we were pretty sure we had a new sister, before we could respond, Suhair proceeded to tell, “Some people believe Isa die go sky…these are Muslims. I believe Isa die, 3 days wake up, go sky, sit right of God. Before come Jordan and Rene no read Injeel, after come Jordan and Rene, give me Injeel.” She then leaned over to me and said, “Thanks by the way,” and continued with her thought. “I read Injeel and know that what it says is true.”

We couldn’t believe what we had just heard. Our hearts were filled with joy and were in complete awe of Father. We asked her what she thought about the Quran and she said “I am Muslim but I believe the Injeel, if I say anything bad about the Quran my god will be mad at me.” So we explained to her that as long as she followed Isa and believed everything he said then God would not be angry with her. Finally, Suhair concluded, “Okay, Injeel is true, Quran is false. My name is Muslim, but my heart believes Injeel. ”

Suhair began to tell us stories about people she knew who had been killed or persecuted because they were raised Muslim and eventually became followers of Isa. It was obvious Suhair was afraid to tell anyone because she thought she would be killed. Renae and I tried to address some of her fears, and we encouraged her to tell her Uncle Achmed, who is a believer with a vision for his family. Suhair expressed how she was even afraid to tell him, predicting he might be angry for some reason. She finally agreed to tell him, but said she would wait for the right time.

Father is truly amazing. We have a new sister because of Him and Him alone. There is nothing that we could have done to convince her that the Injeel was true. Father totally used his word to change her heart. There is a clear difference in her. Before - she was always tired, worried, and depressed. Now - she has a glow about her. Now, for the first time, she looks really happy. Before, she would say, “My god gave me a bad life.” Now, she says, “I have real life.”